omg i love the rain!! it has been years since i was on the bus and the bus was totally dark with just rain (not really) pouring down its windows. like, i feel so cold in the air conditioner plus the rain, but its the i'm-loved feeling inside you.

my my this is a totally perfect time for the rain to come. i feel totally inspired now. and i've also been planning to go away from the computer till the end of the eoys. so see you for now!

very motivated now :D thank you rain wo ai ni :)

see you guys around and good luck for your exams as well!

hello there!

was just reading my blog posts from last year. sept-nov. hahaha, its really crazy. i was like 'wth-ing' over the fact that people started 3 weeks before the eoys. i was banning myself from the computer totally, like for 2 straight weeks and just did hardcore (well maybe not) mugging last year. hahaha, now, its less than 2 weeks to eoys, and i'm still here, doing nothing.

i really hope i studied enough. you know when i study, i don't feel like i'm studying for eoys at all. i'm just studying because i know i need to or something. (somebody tell me whether that's good or bad?!) and i keep thinking i have time, i have time. i'm not freaking out for eoys yet, but my class people are. arghhhhhaad1234y32 this is really different. i don't know why!!

i know i needa study, so i'm leaving with this post. i havent really touch math, amath, physics, chem. english and chinese, if you study that. oh and elit. wa heck, i dont know how to study for lit at all, the teacher never ever said anything about it!!

ok but for now, onwards!

happy birthday mama a :)

i know i'm abit late and you probably can't read english and you probably wouldn't be loooking at this. but still. happy 75th birthday :D

i know alot of things have happened in our family these months. like the whole kwok family that you love alot, that you keep together. honestly, without you, i don't know what the relationship between each family will be like.

i know sometimes you complain about my mum returning the stuff you gave us back to you, i know sometimes my mum complain to me about you and etc. but at the end of the day, as many always say, you're still my grandmother.

and i wanna thank you for the care and just being there, when i was in primary 2, 3, 4, and these years even though i've stopped going to your house anymore. whenever i think of childhood, your house appears in my mind, that's the place where i spent my childhood. with you, and with my cousins.

i know sometimes i can't help but get a little irritated or annoyed at your nagging. or at times when i can't understand your cantonese, i'll just nod and smile. i know you know it, but you still carry on talking. that's the sweetest thing. :) i know you trust me a lot, and sorry for times where i let you down and betrayed this trust. but ever since one incident, i've regretted it, and never done it again. although its not a big matter, it means a lot between our grandma-granddaughter r'ship.

thanks for watching me grow up. calling me when i didn't and asking about me. i know things have happened recently, you might be sad, you might be disappointed, you might just be devastated and hopeless, and please be happy for i know there's still alot of people standing beside you and loving you and just appreciating you. and i am one of them. even though you don't see it.

don't be sad about your sons, its a life lesson, and we've both learnt it well.

i love you mama a.

happybirthday once again!

you can start the countdown guys

FREAKING 69 MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGODDDD!!!

BRING IT ON DH 1! WOOHOO! GOOD MOTIVATION TO LAST THROUGH THE EOYS.

1. was it only 2 years and 9 months before when i was still in primary school? like, the idea of being in primary school, about the lowest education system a person can be in, is rather... unimaginable now. i mean, obviously i can remember 6L and the memories and all that, but the fact that i was in primary school, i've realised wasn't really in my mind. you get what i mean? aiya in summary: time flies.

2. when walking home from school today (woohoo and macs!! omg totally drenched can!), i saw a well, i guess, bangladesh/african worker, plucking out candles from the roadside/path curbs. you know candles for the 7th month and all that. it has been known that you know, doing this type of things is like bad luck, i mean, superstition lah. and suddenly this wave of like respect, and pity 'washed' over me. suddenly i admire these workers you know, leaving their family, coming here to work, to do such things. don't even forget clearing out rubbish dumps and so on. and sometimes they still have to endure our discrimination and etc. its pretty unfair you know. i mean, we burn our things, (not that i do) and just leave it there for them to clean up?! and we still have the cheek to.. look down on them and stuff. (not all, but i admit i did in the past).. hypocritical, isn't it? maybe they don't like us pitying them, its alright, because i have more respect and admiration for them.

3. going home today from macs/busstop opp school. totally.eventful -.- first, i waited for the damn 960 for like 30 minutes!? (seriously guys if you ever say 960 comes like every 5 min i'll punch you) no offence to mow i know its your favourite bus, but if given a choice, i'll definitely not wait for 960 -.- ok waiting for 30 min in the rain, therefore i wasn't impatient. to my surprise i was actually just listening to my songs and just... relax and wait you know. until a 960 comes. guess what i saw -.- packed bus, and when i waved out my hand to flag for the bus, the bus driver actually signalled to me to somehow wait for the next one cause his bus is obviously packed. i was like... ok... then i gave up and took eventually took 190 from the other busstop instead. i wasn't pissed. woohoo!

4. studying hasn't been really productive this holiday. am gonna try to make up for it tomorrow and the following days left. ok yah

byebye.

i love social studies.

this is not sarcasm.

sec 4 farewell.

ahh well, i guess i didn't really expect it to turn out like this. i mean, it feels like we've been practising damn long/hard for farewell. but anyway, i guess it could've been worse :/ just wished we had more time to prepare for our sec 3 item :( but rae saved us in the end! (woohoo!)

didn't really spend/talk to the seniors for a very long while this time though. busy packing the room and the benches. ahh, i'll really really miss them man. now that they're gone, sec 3s really got to step it up a little and yeah, just manage the choir. justine said the choir journey's really really fast, and that a year ago she was already feeling it ending. i can't believe it. i haven't felt anything yet!? i'm still in the mindset that we still got another year and stuff like that.

but, i'll talk about my own feelings some time later. this post is for the seniors so.. i don't think you'll read it, but just pieces of my gratitude for you guys!

kelly: helllo the really awesome section leader. i don't look like a chipmunk!! i hope you like the 'sorry sorry' thing i drew. hahaha, it was really last minute, so sorry i didn't get a letter for you. but yeah, i'll just blog it to you alright. anyway, thanks for being such a you section leader. like being yourself, and making sop 2s laugh with all your (quote) 'shit'. you're a really good SL even though you don't know how to play the piano, like you know what's wrong and you have really creative methods of correcting us and helping us ensure that we get the correct note. so thank you :) sop 2 would have really been different without your heck carish yet so caring attitude :D good luck and jiayou for O's ok! thanks for the chocs and the card!

eveline: HELLLLO! omg 1st things 1st, you look very cute yesterday in your dress. hahaha, anyway ya la, you're one of the seniors i'm closest to. so, would like to thank you for talking to me, and making me feel so warm in sop 2s. its like you always invite me to join in your stuff and everything, so i'm really thankful :D yeah i know its stressful to be in sy, but don't stress yourself out too much studying!! :) i'll always be online/facebook for you to talk to okay! so just know that you have a really nice junior supporting you :) hehehe

celine: hello! :D i used to be very scared of you. like scared scared, didn't dare talk to you and all. i think you know la. when i became assistant QM, it was better, and worse. being A-QM means i'll have to try to talk to you more when settling the scores, and i might just say sth wrong that will make you pissed. hahah, but better in the sense that i got to know you more. and know that you're actually not as scary as you appear. you joke around, and agree with me how slack the QM's job is. so ya :D and of course, being sam's friend, you're now abit more closer in relations. hahaha, hope you enjoyed the farewell yesterday. just wanna thank you for being yourself and making my sop 2 experience unforgettable.

silyn: hello! you're in the celine gang, so no surprise i was scared of you too. hahha, but your face appears to be more ... friendly (no offence celine!!) so i was hoping you're not as scary. i did talk to you a few times, and you have a very pretty smile. :D hahah, serious. i'll always rmb the times i had with sop 2s and you, and also the going home time where i always sees you either waiting for a cab/car or walking back. anyway, hope you like the farewell yesterday although we kept you waiting. good luck for O's yeah!

justine: PAPA! i have no idea since when i became your erzi. suddenly its just.. you calling me erzi. ok anyway, show me the hand sign!! aww fail. :( hahaha no la jk. keep working at it till you get it!! hehhe our secret code. aiya, even though you're not in the same section as me, somehow i know you and start talking to you. :) so ya. thanks for making choir and me both so happy with your ethnics. and your 'who loves choir! raise your hand!' thing. hahha seeing you always make me happy cause you're so tiny and so squeezable. hehhe just jiayou for the O's and remain cheerful always ok! don't go emo! you look best when you're happy. hehe

huijun: ermhem future rock star. hahah please please don't stress yourself too much. by whatever you've told me when walking home, its really scary to be in sec 4. but just rmb that no matter what happens, the whole choir will always be behind you! :D i'll always rmb you for your rock starish gig. and your bday performance!! :D no matter what, don't give up! and just continue to be who you are!! :D good luck for O's! sometimes a walk in the park is helpful in relieving stress! you told me that, so you can try that again when you're stressed :D

other sec 4 seniors: hello guys, thanks for making choir such a really successful place with your leadership. i know this year hasn't been easy for you guys, like us not listening/respecting you. so ya. farisha and liting, i'll never forget the way you guys lead the choir, and basically joke around but yet can be serious. all of you guys are really good seniors so i'm really thankful to have you guys as seniors. yup. hope you guys enjoyed the farewell yesterday. sorry for making you guys wait so long before the start and after dinner. but still, love you guys and choir would have really been different without you :D we'll work hard and make next year's syf a legendary one (ahem GWH GWH!) for you guys :D

okay i guess i'm done here. see you guys around! am going to fb now to check for pictures. hahah!