automatically brings one back to his or her own, favourite fond memories. of times with friends, of times with besties, of times with the person you're most comfortable with, of all the times spent under the sun, living out each second with your favourite group of people, as if there was going to be no tomorrow. but tomorrow always come (in this context) and eventually we all go our separate ways and are forced to make new friends and new memories, no matter how much we don't want to.
nostalgia, and a bit of emptiness soon take over after the reminiscing and you start to feel sad for all the missed times and disappointment at why didn't you cherish them more, why didn't you take a few more pictures, why didn't you express love for them even more. its all too late, you realise, as everyone you care about is now elsewhere, off making new friends and making new memories. a pity i guess. but then soon you take comfort in the fact that they'll probably be still the ones that will stay with you all the way in life, and you're never gonna lose them. naturally then you cheer up, and continue making new friends, new memories, but still in your heart, willing for them to believe that they'll still be the most important friends and shoulders in your life.
probably this is why the song of the same title by 胡夏 is the very first one that can touch me to tears. (i swear, no other songs have made me teared before) not only because of how relatable the song is to me (everyone, in fact) but because the song itself has a really touching story behind it. if anyone of you haven't catch 《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》, you should, immediately. its a nice story, and even a nicer song.
met up with gwen, son, chan and mow (like 1/100th of the choir girls) at burger shack on saturday. to be honest, i'm not trying to be very dramatic over this, but i really felt that something has changed. its not a bad change, but i just felt as if we really began a new chapter of our lives, and we've all grown up. but despite that, we still retain all our old selves, the way of treating each other, the way of behaving outside when with each other, the feelings we get when we see each other. that is a good thing. i really felt as if we have been separated for 10 years or so and are now meeting up in our mid 30s or whatsoever. anyway it was only when i saw them again that i realised how much i've missed them :( i miss gwen's regular forgetfulness and overthinking, making herself depressed (this is no good thing, but its gwen), son's dramatic but funny and true imitations and movements, chan's forever loud and self-praising and bordering on bimbotic, mow's forever 'guai kia' image. and many and many others that couldn't turn up on sat.
then moving to ion that evening where i met my sy friends - chengmun, steph and seah, who (plus at at least 5 others who couldn't come) are a total different bunch of friends from the choiristers. less loud but we share more intellectual and gossipy and dirty conversations. i miss them so much. if not for them, sec 4 wouldn't have been that bearable and enjoyable. its amazing how a group of maybe 8, 9 people can come together when we all have considerably directly opposite personalities. like chengmun's disgust at overly neat stuff VS inez's 'law of straightness', ing's bit pessimistic introverted bipolarity VS kim's weirdness and bluntness towards zing (and us), pei's crazy, dramatic way of speaking VS steph's constant rational and backed up words (they both know a hell lot though) etc etc etc. we're meeting up for bowling soon! yes!!
and i saw krishan on 966 the other day. move to the back of the bus without him knowing and surprised him. hahahah come to think of it, we're actually quite fated since we ended up in sji and scgs (basically schools that are beside each other) from zhps and now we're together in vj. caught up a lot on the hour ride home. talked about both our classes, our friends and happenings in vj. glad that everything's still the same and we're equally open about our questions so ^^
oh and have i said. i'm currently supposed to be at an odac OLC selection camp at ubin. but due to a freaking shit as hell bad sprain on both my back thighs (and a bit of tear), i have to drop out of odac camp! which sucks because the odac camp training was so damn fun. but regardless, over is over, here i wish all of HURRICANE (my team) all the best. even though they won't be able to see this, but i'll send them the most amount of mental energy for them for them to pull through! jiayou jiayou!
Friday, February 17, 2012
Sunday, February 12, 2012
homework on the first day of school
such is the life of a victorian, or that of any pre-university student.
so school has officially started. that means the end of orientation and the beginning of countless lectures and tutorials that just drone on and on and on and on...
i was half an hour late for class on tuesday, the first official day of school. if this were to get into any of my ex teachers ears it would definitely not be pleasant. actually i reached the school gate 10 mins after the bell rang, but was kept standing there, feeding flies and listening to the management in-charge lecture us for 20 minutes. but thankfully vj does not have a very distinct demerit system (unlikecoughsscgscoughs), your parents will just be issued a warning letter after mutiple times of latecoming or offences. and as far as i'm concerened, i'm not someone who would commit so significant offences that a warning letter would be sent to home. probably just latecoming (of which i was booked for thrice in sec 4, resulting in my 6 demerit points that i've somehow neevr paid detention for hahahaha) but that my mother probably would know of beforehand.
anyway tutorials are fine. but lectures are crazily fast and chim that its hard to be on the same page and pace with the lecturer. but vj, homework is very slack. they only mark (in other words, you only need to hand in) assignments probably a few times each term. the other homework or rather, practices, are all supposed to be done on your own by continuous self-check, self-discipline or for most of the cases, peer pressure. so i guess in that aspect its more relaxing for teachers don't put too much attention on you. but one has to be mindful and not go overboard with the freedom. this, is probably the main difference between sc and vj.
chem and math sucks like shit. the only lessons i'm enjoying (or not complaining about) now are history econs gp and perhaps PW if i get a fun group. ^^
i realise i use brackets a lot. but am i even using it correctly, i don't know. hang on
screw this i just wiki-ed 'bracket' and they start giving me parentheses (), curly brackets, chevrons and square brackets and some other shit. the only definition available is "Brackets are tall punctuation marks used in matched pairs within text, to set apart or interject other text."
which is basically what i'm doing right? so let's assume my use of brackets is correct.
my class is fine, as i've said before. we got closer together after spending an hour in the sea at ecp on friday while getting our faces and arms burnt. not extremely close yet but i think everything takes time so... we'll see.
met up with OG on friday at suntec!! by far the most fun event of the year. mass dancing at suntec and going around the fountain of wealth in human trains screaming things like "cyclops!" , "62!", "C1!" and most importantly, "sc-gs!" OG mates are fun people to be with i wish we can really meet up every month or at least a few times per year! i hate how we're all in different classes and separated that i don't even see all of them around.
ccas currenly are the worst part of jc life. kind of ironic because that used to be the best thing that happened to me in scgs! but well i guess not wanting to join choir again has its consequences. i tried for track and field and didn't get in (overestimation of my abilities here hahahaha) and right now i have ODAC, dance, photography, table tennis under my sign up sheet. i did sign up for cross country as well but that must have occured when my brain was filled with bullshit or sth.
pe in vj is the craziest lesson ever. doesn't help when you get the strictest teacher in town. ran 3.2k at ecp the first pe lesson and did some rounds and shit drills (20 push ups, 40 sit ups, 40 bending up and jumping back shit) at 5 o' clock in the afternoon during remedial pe. seriously i hope i'll pass the mock napfa if not i'll have to stay back every thurs sweating my ass off. but i doubt so because my standing broad jump and pull ups are freaking shit.
ok i'm done here. school tomorrow again! i'll be posting soon.
so school has officially started. that means the end of orientation and the beginning of countless lectures and tutorials that just drone on and on and on and on...
i was half an hour late for class on tuesday, the first official day of school. if this were to get into any of my ex teachers ears it would definitely not be pleasant. actually i reached the school gate 10 mins after the bell rang, but was kept standing there, feeding flies and listening to the management in-charge lecture us for 20 minutes. but thankfully vj does not have a very distinct demerit system (unlikecoughsscgscoughs), your parents will just be issued a warning letter after mutiple times of latecoming or offences. and as far as i'm concerened, i'm not someone who would commit so significant offences that a warning letter would be sent to home. probably just latecoming (of which i was booked for thrice in sec 4, resulting in my 6 demerit points that i've somehow neevr paid detention for hahahaha) but that my mother probably would know of beforehand.
anyway tutorials are fine. but lectures are crazily fast and chim that its hard to be on the same page and pace with the lecturer. but vj, homework is very slack. they only mark (in other words, you only need to hand in) assignments probably a few times each term. the other homework or rather, practices, are all supposed to be done on your own by continuous self-check, self-discipline or for most of the cases, peer pressure. so i guess in that aspect its more relaxing for teachers don't put too much attention on you. but one has to be mindful and not go overboard with the freedom. this, is probably the main difference between sc and vj.
chem and math sucks like shit. the only lessons i'm enjoying (or not complaining about) now are history econs gp and perhaps PW if i get a fun group. ^^
i realise i use brackets a lot. but am i even using it correctly, i don't know. hang on
screw this i just wiki-ed 'bracket' and they start giving me parentheses (), curly brackets, chevrons and square brackets and some other shit. the only definition available is "Brackets are tall punctuation marks used in matched pairs within text, to set apart or interject other text."
which is basically what i'm doing right? so let's assume my use of brackets is correct.
my class is fine, as i've said before. we got closer together after spending an hour in the sea at ecp on friday while getting our faces and arms burnt. not extremely close yet but i think everything takes time so... we'll see.
met up with OG on friday at suntec!! by far the most fun event of the year. mass dancing at suntec and going around the fountain of wealth in human trains screaming things like "cyclops!" , "62!", "C1!" and most importantly, "sc-gs!" OG mates are fun people to be with i wish we can really meet up every month or at least a few times per year! i hate how we're all in different classes and separated that i don't even see all of them around.
ccas currenly are the worst part of jc life. kind of ironic because that used to be the best thing that happened to me in scgs! but well i guess not wanting to join choir again has its consequences. i tried for track and field and didn't get in (overestimation of my abilities here hahahaha) and right now i have ODAC, dance, photography, table tennis under my sign up sheet. i did sign up for cross country as well but that must have occured when my brain was filled with bullshit or sth.
pe in vj is the craziest lesson ever. doesn't help when you get the strictest teacher in town. ran 3.2k at ecp the first pe lesson and did some rounds and shit drills (20 push ups, 40 sit ups, 40 bending up and jumping back shit) at 5 o' clock in the afternoon during remedial pe. seriously i hope i'll pass the mock napfa if not i'll have to stay back every thurs sweating my ass off. but i doubt so because my standing broad jump and pull ups are freaking shit.
ok i'm done here. school tomorrow again! i'll be posting soon.
Monday, February 6, 2012
drowning in my sweat... and a bit of rain (eew)
so i just came home from running.
well it started pouring halfway and i had to take shelter at some under the highway shit just at the side of the jogging track. i rather like the feeling of sweat drops and rain drops both falling on me together, but i think once is enough for sometimes the rain really blurs your vision and dampens your running morale (no matter how much a person can like rain). worst of all, sometimes when a droplet of what seems to be rain touches your lips, instead of tasting refreshing precipitation (..) from the heavens, you taste something a little more salty and a little more unappealing. well then you realised you actually tasted your sweat and accompanied with the tiredness after jogging for a long time, it just starts to go downhill from there.
but actually i thank the rain today for it has made me run more than i thought i could accomplish. i haven't ran since.. goodness knows when. like one month ago? (and that before that one incident i haven't ran since november)
when the seniors said "nobody in vj is unfit", i literally went 'shit!' in my head because i know, no matter how much i seem very sporty, i am not. my standing broad jump is just... pathetic. very miserable grades and everything is just.. gross. but i don't wanna go for remedial pe! (yeah there's such thing in vj, basically you stay back during the afternoons to work out)
oh and did i say. apparently my first few pe lessons are going to be spent running because VJ takes part in this cross country shit annually. which means, we have to train to run to complete the run. urgh! no wonder nobody in vj is unfit!
anyway lessons and lectures officially start tomorrow and walao this is shit. i want to play more damn it! but thankfully my class is doing fine, just that i think we could be closer even more. but we have time so ^^ i miss my OG (cyclops 1!!!) so damn much though :( it sucks that when you're just getting used to these people, you have to be separated into your classes and who knows when you'll meet up again! thank goodness we have this suntec mass dance thing this friday where i would be able to wear my cyclops badge again! but apart from that, i hope C1 continues to meet up!!
i feel like i'll blabber if i continue on! so i'll just end it here with a really interesting thing i found on 9gag ^^
Saturday, February 4, 2012
VJO'12 (CYCLOPS!!!)
ayye, just a copy over from pei's style of blogging, the author here is still currently not used to being branded as a victorian. there's always this part of my heart that clutches and shrinks back a little when i scream "VICTORIA!", or when the emcee addresses us as victorians. whenever that happens, my mind automatically shifts to scgs, being called 'kim geks' during assemblies those mornings not long before. the 'kim geks' that tina neoh or any other overly-enthusiastic teacher (or principal) call us used to be cringe-worthy, but now, it has become a little endearing.
to be honest, even though i complain a lot about sc and sc's screwed up (or not, now i think) education system, sc has been good to me no doubt. she has given me friends that will stay for life, teachers that are so damn dedicated and patient as well as all the help i need to excel in both my academic and non-academic areas. so here i thank scgs and swear that i'll always remember sc.
but that being said, its not like VJ's been bad to me.
in fact, VJ has been so much better than expected. up to the extent where it has caused my regret of not getting into HCI to die down so much that it now only takes up a pathetic less than a percent of my thoughts.
the first day of orientation on tuesday started with so much apprehension than excitement. but more of the latter took over when i realised farisha was my OGL. and then we were introduced to our other 2 ogls, ian and yong siang who i now feel are the most patient and helpful and enthusiastic ogls ever. without them, or if i had really sucky and heck carey ogls, i'm sure i'll still be wallowing in self pity of not going into hci or more seriously, blame vj for stealing my choice away. that would really suck up my 2 years being there.
on the first day, everyone was still so foreign with each other that we barely talked or dared to speak a little louder. my OG (CYCLOPS 1!!!! or rather, 洗碗）consists of ... (hang on while i sort out all the names) Junyu, Emma, Qiong Hua, Qiu Ran, Qing Ying, Crystal, Isha, Jocelyn, Huicong, Pinyi, Guang Ming, Adrian, Rahul, Ammar and Justinian, who joined on the 2nd day. ^^ actually its not like any of these names will make sense to you unless you're from cyclops (CYCLOPS!!!) but i thought i'll just list them out because they are worth it.
but yeah, thankfully on the second day, we got closer. 2nd day was the day of wet and dirty games. we dunked our faces in flour while using our lips to search out tic tacs, sat on a combination of fountain water, tomato sauce, soy sauce and who knows what else, smashed and being smashed with water bombs, ran and rolled in soap water and got all hot, sweaty, sticky, wet and dirty. but well we opened up more and cheered significantly louder than the first day. and then we went to the airport for dinner, which ended up in more games and forfeits.
third day was more games and boring sleepy talks and somewhere in the morning, we learnt some mass dances. after lunch we were asked to gather in our classes (woo 12s62!!!) and i'm glad to say, my class is fine ^^. 'fine' should be said in the trolling way with eyebrows raised but not with a straight face. fine i meant this face.
to be honest, even though i complain a lot about sc and sc's screwed up (or not, now i think) education system, sc has been good to me no doubt. she has given me friends that will stay for life, teachers that are so damn dedicated and patient as well as all the help i need to excel in both my academic and non-academic areas. so here i thank scgs and swear that i'll always remember sc.
but that being said, its not like VJ's been bad to me.
in fact, VJ has been so much better than expected. up to the extent where it has caused my regret of not getting into HCI to die down so much that it now only takes up a pathetic less than a percent of my thoughts.
the first day of orientation on tuesday started with so much apprehension than excitement. but more of the latter took over when i realised farisha was my OGL. and then we were introduced to our other 2 ogls, ian and yong siang who i now feel are the most patient and helpful and enthusiastic ogls ever. without them, or if i had really sucky and heck carey ogls, i'm sure i'll still be wallowing in self pity of not going into hci or more seriously, blame vj for stealing my choice away. that would really suck up my 2 years being there.
on the first day, everyone was still so foreign with each other that we barely talked or dared to speak a little louder. my OG (CYCLOPS 1!!!! or rather, 洗碗）consists of ... (hang on while i sort out all the names) Junyu, Emma, Qiong Hua, Qiu Ran, Qing Ying, Crystal, Isha, Jocelyn, Huicong, Pinyi, Guang Ming, Adrian, Rahul, Ammar and Justinian, who joined on the 2nd day. ^^ actually its not like any of these names will make sense to you unless you're from cyclops (CYCLOPS!!!) but i thought i'll just list them out because they are worth it.
but yeah, thankfully on the second day, we got closer. 2nd day was the day of wet and dirty games. we dunked our faces in flour while using our lips to search out tic tacs, sat on a combination of fountain water, tomato sauce, soy sauce and who knows what else, smashed and being smashed with water bombs, ran and rolled in soap water and got all hot, sweaty, sticky, wet and dirty. but well we opened up more and cheered significantly louder than the first day. and then we went to the airport for dinner, which ended up in more games and forfeits.
third day was more games and boring sleepy talks and somewhere in the morning, we learnt some mass dances. after lunch we were asked to gather in our classes (woo 12s62!!!) and i'm glad to say, my class is fine ^^. 'fine' should be said in the trolling way with eyebrows raised but not with a straight face. fine i meant this face.
which means, my class is turning up awesome. hahaha guys can really liven up the mood and make everything funny instead of screamy. and then we went back to our OGs and by then, i've developed a strong liking for C1 that i'm pretty sure i'll miss C1 damn alot when we separate.
and indeed, on the fourth day when we spent the whole morning and half the afternoon with our class, i did miss them. its this dependence you have on them because they're your first few friends in a foreign land you know. plus, it doesn't help that they are actually all awesome people. i really want C1 to stay together and meet up every third sat of the month or something. they're really really nice friends!!
so well this post is turning up really long winded and shit so i'm going to end this soon. even though we suffocated in the hall that stank of sweat and shoes and humidity, even though we were all people from different places just gathered together for barely a few days, even though i was allocated to my second choice, i'm really glad i ended up in vj (even though travelling is hell of a b****). so much that i'm already anticipating next monday (that has never happened in my entire schooling life i swear) and seeing both of OG mates and classmates.
so there. roughly the sum up for everything. oh and did i mention, cyclops (CYCLOPS!!!) emerged third (of 8) overall! that's damn freaking awesome! its a great start to a great year ^^
right so i'll see you guys around. for those who didn't get into their first choice (which surprisingly is a lot this year), don't be disappointed anymore because its really useless to be sad over something that cannot be helped anymore.
since MOE trolled you, troll back.
and indeed, on the fourth day when we spent the whole morning and half the afternoon with our class, i did miss them. its this dependence you have on them because they're your first few friends in a foreign land you know. plus, it doesn't help that they are actually all awesome people. i really want C1 to stay together and meet up every third sat of the month or something. they're really really nice friends!!
so well this post is turning up really long winded and shit so i'm going to end this soon. even though we suffocated in the hall that stank of sweat and shoes and humidity, even though we were all people from different places just gathered together for barely a few days, even though i was allocated to my second choice, i'm really glad i ended up in vj (even though travelling is hell of a b****). so much that i'm already anticipating next monday (that has never happened in my entire schooling life i swear) and seeing both of OG mates and classmates.
so there. roughly the sum up for everything. oh and did i mention, cyclops (CYCLOPS!!!) emerged third (of 8) overall! that's damn freaking awesome! its a great start to a great year ^^
right so i'll see you guys around. for those who didn't get into their first choice (which surprisingly is a lot this year), don't be disappointed anymore because its really useless to be sad over something that cannot be helped anymore.
since MOE trolled you, troll back.
Monday, January 30, 2012
sucks
to be suffering from school blues.
man i'm currently getting the its-sunday-night-tmr-is-monday feeling! just 10 times worse. plus going into such a foreign territory, travelling so far, in sc uniform (*^^$^%$#@*)(*(&$
i still want to play. i have not played enough! omg hate this hate this i don't want school to bloody start. once tmr comes, its 2 years of continuous hell.
poly people stop gloating.
omg school school school school school school scares the freak out of me.
plus i haven't done so many things yet!
and i want to stay up late more!!! i can never do that again!! (for entertainment purposes)
ok whatever bye
man i'm currently getting the its-sunday-night-tmr-is-monday feeling! just 10 times worse. plus going into such a foreign territory, travelling so far, in sc uniform (*^^$^%$#@*)(*(&$
i still want to play. i have not played enough! omg hate this hate this i don't want school to bloody start. once tmr comes, its 2 years of continuous hell.
poly people stop gloating.
omg school school school school school school scares the freak out of me.
plus i haven't done so many things yet!
and i want to stay up late more!!! i can never do that again!! (for entertainment purposes)
ok whatever bye
the first drama of the dragon
so today i woke up to my mother barging into my room at 7.59am while announcing its 8 o' clock and that the computer is already switched on for me to check my posting results.
so while i quickly got over my first reaction of 'what the hell , i quickly remembered that the phone beside me would contain the answer that both my mother and i are dying to know for. and so i picked up the phone and unlocked it.
'2 new messages'.
the one shown on the screen was by the number 74+++ and i thought it was just a damn nokia commercial. but when i opened the message, i saw the command from MOE, calling me KWOK YI LING in freaking CAPS (seriously why so serious moe do you know not all people can wake up and handle a CAPS command from the ministry a few seconds after they wake up) and freaking ordered me to report tomorrow at 7.30am at .... victoria junior college.
a few nanoseconds after my brain registered the msg, i asked myself: so am i happy or not. for another few nanoseconds, i thought, why this is not bad! vjc! and suddenly it striked me that i wanted to go to hwachong and then the thought of taking an hour's long bus ride and waking up at inhumane hours in the morning conveniently struck me as well.
and so one second after my brain registered the msg, i went 'crap'.
so it was only then that i realised how much i wanted to go to hwachong. i mean, vj's fine, but the distance is kind of putting me off right now. i wouldn't mind the culture in vj, but why forgo hwachong when you can get there?
and then the whole morning passed in a blurred frenzy. my mum took a half day leave, and while i'm still processing and accepting the fact that i have to go to vj tomorrow, the preparation of the appeal form and relevant certificates already unconsciously began. during which, i got into a slight arguement with my mum because i was supposed to go back to zhenghua for a visit at 10.30 but she asked me to prioritise. we screamed a few words and i kind of shut her out and broke down (for a mere few seconds) under the pressure of the freaking appeal shit but also wanting to honour my word about going back to zhps.
thankfully everything was prepared by 10 and me and my mum came up with a win-win situation. while i can keep my word and visit mdm neo, it has only to be until 11. and after which i would immediately head to hci to hand in the appeal form. so yup. everything ended by 12 noon and we headed over to bpp for lunch and then we parted. (she returned to work while i went to buy the necessary for the start of school)
in the end, i'm really thankful for my mother for taking the half day off. i think she was more disappointed than i was when i told her i was heading to vj. i'm pretty sure i would have freaked out or might have just abandoned the appeal and accept my vj fate if she wasn't here. plus getting into hci was so pressurising and thankfully and gratefully, she was there. i thanked her ^^
vjc is less unappealing now as the day pass. but as much as the weariness of the thought of going to vj fades, the want to go into hci just gets stronger.
but whatever it is, nothing more can be done for everything lies with hci. the results, according to the receptionist, is coming out tomorrow evening. so until then, i pray and pray and hope that my portfolio would attract them to accept me into their instituition.
ps: i swear - the first 7 paragraphs are real. i really felt whatever i wrote. the emotions, the thoughts whatsoever.
so while i quickly got over my first reaction of 'what the hell , i quickly remembered that the phone beside me would contain the answer that both my mother and i are dying to know for. and so i picked up the phone and unlocked it.
'2 new messages'.
the one shown on the screen was by the number 74+++ and i thought it was just a damn nokia commercial. but when i opened the message, i saw the command from MOE, calling me KWOK YI LING in freaking CAPS (seriously why so serious moe do you know not all people can wake up and handle a CAPS command from the ministry a few seconds after they wake up) and freaking ordered me to report tomorrow at 7.30am at .... victoria junior college.
a few nanoseconds after my brain registered the msg, i asked myself: so am i happy or not. for another few nanoseconds, i thought, why this is not bad! vjc! and suddenly it striked me that i wanted to go to hwachong and then the thought of taking an hour's long bus ride and waking up at inhumane hours in the morning conveniently struck me as well.
and so one second after my brain registered the msg, i went 'crap'.
so it was only then that i realised how much i wanted to go to hwachong. i mean, vj's fine, but the distance is kind of putting me off right now. i wouldn't mind the culture in vj, but why forgo hwachong when you can get there?
and then the whole morning passed in a blurred frenzy. my mum took a half day leave, and while i'm still processing and accepting the fact that i have to go to vj tomorrow, the preparation of the appeal form and relevant certificates already unconsciously began. during which, i got into a slight arguement with my mum because i was supposed to go back to zhenghua for a visit at 10.30 but she asked me to prioritise. we screamed a few words and i kind of shut her out and broke down (for a mere few seconds) under the pressure of the freaking appeal shit but also wanting to honour my word about going back to zhps.
thankfully everything was prepared by 10 and me and my mum came up with a win-win situation. while i can keep my word and visit mdm neo, it has only to be until 11. and after which i would immediately head to hci to hand in the appeal form. so yup. everything ended by 12 noon and we headed over to bpp for lunch and then we parted. (she returned to work while i went to buy the necessary for the start of school)
in the end, i'm really thankful for my mother for taking the half day off. i think she was more disappointed than i was when i told her i was heading to vj. i'm pretty sure i would have freaked out or might have just abandoned the appeal and accept my vj fate if she wasn't here. plus getting into hci was so pressurising and thankfully and gratefully, she was there. i thanked her ^^
vjc is less unappealing now as the day pass. but as much as the weariness of the thought of going to vj fades, the want to go into hci just gets stronger.
but whatever it is, nothing more can be done for everything lies with hci. the results, according to the receptionist, is coming out tomorrow evening. so until then, i pray and pray and hope that my portfolio would attract them to accept me into their instituition.
ps: i swear - the first 7 paragraphs are real. i really felt whatever i wrote. the emotions, the thoughts whatsoever.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
农历兔年的最后一天
今年的农历新年来的特别突然。我根本还没感受到那过年的气氛。我记得过去的几年，因为想赶快脱离学校那一堆堆的功课和趁新年好好休息玩玩（打麻将，玩牌，吃肉干）， 所以才特别期待新年的到来。可是，我想，今年之所以会觉得新年来的非常‘没什么’应该是因为我早已沉醉在假期的气氛里； 每天都在玩，都在享受，哪里会在意有没有个新年给我机会休息呢？
what the heck did i just do. its so unbelievable i actually wanted to pen down my thoughts in chinese. and obviously, i gave up after finishing only one paragraph. anyway the above paragraph basically means that i found cny this year to come very suddenly and sorta 'unsignificantly'. yup
honestly ever since watching the new hzgg i've developed a greater liking for the chinese culture and the language. but not up to the extent where i would want to study chinese literature/study in chinese/do chinese anymore. (so phew i no longer need to touch chinese!) its just that the poems and everything from the eras back are so fascinating! ... (ok i can feel the general feel of disgust and disbelief from you readers)
so anyway i had my reunion dinner with my mother's side yesterday evening (instead of today). even though i didn't do much but eat and play cards but i still enjoyed all of us being there. actually cny has always been a bigger and much more enjoyable event for me than christmas or any other festivals. i love the goodies, the family gatherings, the typical 'gong xi gong xi', the 'low-ing' of the yu sheng (where everybody crapped out 4 word chinese phrases or like zhong toto ah! 4D ah! huat ah! dong nan xi bei ah!), the redness of everything and the atmosphere.
i believe i'd enjoy this year's cny even more because i'm just so.. free. no school, no work no nothing. plus cny means going out even more with friends and mahjong with zy and zoey! hahaha this post is kind of dry..
anyway here to all readers: happy chinese new year! ;) wish you all great health (for it is the most important) this dragon year!
to students like me: all the best in your new schooling environment (95' babies) or just, may you have the spirit of a dragonand excel in your studies!
to people who are already working (i doubt any adults read this blog): suck it up man its other year for you.
to parents: even though you might not need my reminder but just work hard at making babies.
ok this post is damn stupid. but ah everybody HUAT AH!
Friday, January 20, 2012
2011 holiday happenings
right so i realised i hardly ever post about any gatherings i've been to this holiday. which is a waste, because this is really the last break i'll get before the A levels, or more seriously (according to someone who told me but sry i forgot who), this is the last break of your life because after jc/poly you'll move on to uni, work, getting married (aka slogging for your husband), giving birth. so yeah here it is. they are not in chronological order or sorted in any way.
bowling@kallang
where is the other group's photo?! anyway 8 of us. met them while they were in subway (they ice skated first) so ya. score was not bad considering this is the (less than third) time i'm playing bowling (the other times were on wii and the phone) so yeah. except for the first three bowls where i scored only 1. hahaha anyway our group won!! don't ask me why i'm standing so far away from the other three. haha anyway after that we went to the rooftop and played monopoly deal
sleepover@kirsten
basically we just slacked and became useless pieces of trash laying all around her bedroom floor. we played a lot actually. things like taboo and.. ya. we watched youtube videos (eg. sosingaporean, aaron gangsta oh 'priest', dee kosh), tried to karaoke through youtube (-.-). after dinner and all, we played monopoly deal, and played monopoly deal. we have no life. oh yes we finished ANTM 16. why is britany the winner!!
the next morning, we head over to KAP's macs and you guessed it, played monopoly deal again. afterwards i went home while the rest headed over to town to shop.
just a pretty interesting picture taken during the sleepover by ethan, kirsten's bro. come to think of it, we are pretty fated! (see deborah's bday celebration for more details) all the way since the sleepover! plus the only explanation why he can snap the picture while i snapped mine (in the small cam) is just... we have freaking sparking chemistry! woots woots. btw, the small camera is only a necklace sorta thing. its not a real camera.
trekking+lunch+shopping@macritchie+ion
kim chan and inez were probably the ones who suggested this. i mean, who the heck walks macritchie when you can be at home sleeping right! (see chengmun slept through 20 (is it?) alarm clocks!) well even though it appeared to be very tiring, but actually, it isn't, because of friends ^^ so actually it was overall a rather good idea because 1. you get to exercise and keep fit and 2. friends ^^ this picture should include seah ^^ i don't look too flattering in this one, but this is the only close enough full picture i could get off facebook so :/
so after the walk we went to ion for lunch (basically we ate all the burnt calories back) and then shopped for awhile. lah da da and walked over to lido! thumbs up for same expression (Y) other than that, the reason why i posted a picture of ruoning and i is just... she is rare.
sam'smeetup@wcp
why is this the only picture i can find on facebook of that day?! ahh well sam came back from the uk so we met up at wcp! btw, the pyramid there is rebuilt and now there are 2 slides of which you can slide down from! save you all the energy and fear from climbing down! and then after pei left, we (cheng inez sam me) walked around while sam roller bladed. went to clementi's mall for lunch at burger king and to queensway to buy sam's badminton racket. speaking of sam, she's the first person i've ever known to own a credit card (in the first place you don't see a lot of 16 year olds walking around with one right) and to not actually remember the pin. so while buying the racket, she was figuring out the pin number and the shop keeper's face was like .... :/ but yeah, that's sam! in between we also went to ikea.
postprom@sentosa
kirsten is right. this is a nice picture ^^ so one day we went back to visit the choir. schoir is really small now. but yeah felt really old at that place. :/ then we went for lunch at united square with steph! ate the... texas chicken for the very first time. not really worth it in my opinion. oh ya! how come the polaroid we took in front of the xmas tree is not up on facebook?! then we headed to gwen's place and to ecp to fish in the canal. in between we played monopoly deal (again) and yeah. a very different gathering, i guess. :)
choir@uss
so we went to uss. i believed i've blogged about this. it was fun, but the ticket could have been cheaper. but yes this is taken during lunch (at chilli's), when kiran and steph met us ^^ there was a lot of fun and craziness going on, during which i even performed a magic trick! hahaha too bad video's not up there. anyway gonna miss these guys alot alot.
a really really nice group picture taken by marquisha's polaroid ^^
this is here for only just because the 2 roller coasters at the back formed a heart shape. :) plus we all looked so happy (and exhausted)
belatedbdaycelebrationfordeborah@island
group picture :) so we (chan gwen deb and i) were nearly an hour late because we were helping out at sc before that. anyway so deborah was really surprised hahha she even wanted to sing happy bday for somebody else. hahah true actually since this cake came almost 2 months late. so as you can see, we played monopoly deal (freaking again). oh and we chatted and played speed and cheat with poker cards. ohh by the way the cake (outside with gummies inside cookies and cream) is really nice!
this is probably the highlight product of the day. basically its a family tree linking all 6 of us together, with us marrying the other person's brother and all. hahaha its abit creepy come to think of it but it is nice having the thought of us all related next time ^^ care to join? ;)
scgs4syclassof2011gradceremony@scgs
class photo ^^ finally all of us graduated and honestly, the 2 years haven't been easy. just the word 'graduation' already holds so much within itself. i mean, we were all kind of separated initially but towards o's, we did bond a bit more and yes, congratulations to everyone because i believe our class did very well :D i don't wanna go into the "oh how nice it is it takes so much fate to come together and be in a same class of 38 out of 6 freaking billion people in the world" crap, even though its true. but well you know the last sentence of harry potter and the philosopher's stone, chapter 10 "hallowe'en" says:
"But from that moment on, Hermione Granger became their friend. There are some things you can't share without ending up liking each other, and knocking out a twelve-foot mountain troll is one of them."
well perhaps its not that matching to our situation, but its close. (plus i purposely took the book out so whatever objections you have you should shut up) we didn't knock down a troll, but we did go through what can be considered our first life ordeal together so yeah, friends :)
6L2007gathering@plazasing
i did talk about this before but yeah, here's a picture of it. :) ira and salihin should be in it as well. as to this gathering, i have nothing more to say, but i'm sure even though all the gatherings are like dying, i still believe 6L will stay strong. we will meet up again soon. 6L don't you ever think of running away oh and if you guys are wondering whether the last 2 guys are twins, they are.
bowling@kallang
where is the other group's photo?! anyway 8 of us. met them while they were in subway (they ice skated first) so ya. score was not bad considering this is the (less than third) time i'm playing bowling (the other times were on wii and the phone) so yeah. except for the first three bowls where i scored only 1. hahaha anyway our group won!! don't ask me why i'm standing so far away from the other three. haha anyway after that we went to the rooftop and played monopoly deal
sleepover@kirsten
basically we just slacked and became useless pieces of trash laying all around her bedroom floor. we played a lot actually. things like taboo and.. ya. we watched youtube videos (eg. sosingaporean, aaron gangsta oh 'priest', dee kosh), tried to karaoke through youtube (-.-). after dinner and all, we played monopoly deal, and played monopoly deal. we have no life. oh yes we finished ANTM 16. why is britany the winner!!
the next morning, we head over to KAP's macs and you guessed it, played monopoly deal again. afterwards i went home while the rest headed over to town to shop.
just a pretty interesting picture taken during the sleepover by ethan, kirsten's bro. come to think of it, we are pretty fated! (see deborah's bday celebration for more details) all the way since the sleepover! plus the only explanation why he can snap the picture while i snapped mine (in the small cam) is just... we have freaking sparking chemistry! woots woots. btw, the small camera is only a necklace sorta thing. its not a real camera.
trekking+lunch+shopping@macritchie+ion
kim chan and inez were probably the ones who suggested this. i mean, who the heck walks macritchie when you can be at home sleeping right! (see chengmun slept through 20 (is it?) alarm clocks!) well even though it appeared to be very tiring, but actually, it isn't, because of friends ^^ so actually it was overall a rather good idea because 1. you get to exercise and keep fit and 2. friends ^^ this picture should include seah ^^ i don't look too flattering in this one, but this is the only close enough full picture i could get off facebook so :/
so after the walk we went to ion for lunch (basically we ate all the burnt calories back) and then shopped for awhile. lah da da and walked over to lido! thumbs up for same expression (Y) other than that, the reason why i posted a picture of ruoning and i is just... she is rare.
sam'smeetup@wcp
why is this the only picture i can find on facebook of that day?! ahh well sam came back from the uk so we met up at wcp! btw, the pyramid there is rebuilt and now there are 2 slides of which you can slide down from! save you all the energy and fear from climbing down! and then after pei left, we (cheng inez sam me) walked around while sam roller bladed. went to clementi's mall for lunch at burger king and to queensway to buy sam's badminton racket. speaking of sam, she's the first person i've ever known to own a credit card (in the first place you don't see a lot of 16 year olds walking around with one right) and to not actually remember the pin. so while buying the racket, she was figuring out the pin number and the shop keeper's face was like .... :/ but yeah, that's sam! in between we also went to ikea.
postprom@sentosa
i'm pretty sure i've posted about this prom thing before but i'll post this picture here just because its very beautiful ^^
lepaking@kim
this day... was rather uneventful but eventful. the whole morning was spent with monopoly deal during which kim clocked a record of having 96million worth of bank money. then we hung around with the dogs (rather, seah and zing and zhimun) and just sat around... then we went to this nearby small mall called yourvillage where we took the above jumpshot ^^ pei was there in the morning. hahaha she left before i arrived.
kirsten is right. this is a nice picture ^^ so one day we went back to visit the choir. schoir is really small now. but yeah felt really old at that place. :/ then we went for lunch at united square with steph! ate the... texas chicken for the very first time. not really worth it in my opinion. oh ya! how come the polaroid we took in front of the xmas tree is not up on facebook?! then we headed to gwen's place and to ecp to fish in the canal. in between we played monopoly deal (again) and yeah. a very different gathering, i guess. :)
choir@uss
so we went to uss. i believed i've blogged about this. it was fun, but the ticket could have been cheaper. but yes this is taken during lunch (at chilli's), when kiran and steph met us ^^ there was a lot of fun and craziness going on, during which i even performed a magic trick! hahaha too bad video's not up there. anyway gonna miss these guys alot alot.
a really really nice group picture taken by marquisha's polaroid ^^
this is here for only just because the 2 roller coasters at the back formed a heart shape. :) plus we all looked so happy (and exhausted)
belatedbdaycelebrationfordeborah@island
group picture :) so we (chan gwen deb and i) were nearly an hour late because we were helping out at sc before that. anyway so deborah was really surprised hahha she even wanted to sing happy bday for somebody else. hahah true actually since this cake came almost 2 months late. so as you can see, we played monopoly deal (freaking again). oh and we chatted and played speed and cheat with poker cards. ohh by the way the cake (outside with gummies inside cookies and cream) is really nice!
this is probably the highlight product of the day. basically its a family tree linking all 6 of us together, with us marrying the other person's brother and all. hahaha its abit creepy come to think of it but it is nice having the thought of us all related next time ^^ care to join? ;)
scgs4syclassof2011gradceremony@scgs
class photo ^^ finally all of us graduated and honestly, the 2 years haven't been easy. just the word 'graduation' already holds so much within itself. i mean, we were all kind of separated initially but towards o's, we did bond a bit more and yes, congratulations to everyone because i believe our class did very well :D i don't wanna go into the "oh how nice it is it takes so much fate to come together and be in a same class of 38 out of 6 freaking billion people in the world" crap, even though its true. but well you know the last sentence of harry potter and the philosopher's stone, chapter 10 "hallowe'en" says:
"But from that moment on, Hermione Granger became their friend. There are some things you can't share without ending up liking each other, and knocking out a twelve-foot mountain troll is one of them."
well perhaps its not that matching to our situation, but its close. (plus i purposely took the book out so whatever objections you have you should shut up) we didn't knock down a troll, but we did go through what can be considered our first life ordeal together so yeah, friends :)
6L2007gathering@plazasing
i did talk about this before but yeah, here's a picture of it. :) ira and salihin should be in it as well. as to this gathering, i have nothing more to say, but i'm sure even though all the gatherings are like dying, i still believe 6L will stay strong. we will meet up again soon. 6L don't you ever think of running away oh and if you guys are wondering whether the last 2 guys are twins, they are.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Survey 1
hello there! so i've been blog-hopping and came across these few surveys/quizzes done by lee rui and eliz on their blogs. so i decided to steal them and do it myself. actually its just for my own personal entertainment. i'm sure its nothing interesting so you can skip through these posts because that's what i did after reading a few of their answers.
5 Senses Bolding Survey!
I like to touch
1. crisp dollar bills
2. hot sheets fresh out of the dryer
3. worn down sandpaper
4. exfoliating face wash
5. books with leather bound covers
6. crayola model magic
7. smooth and cool ceramic items
8. hot heating pads
9. fringes on scarves
10. my eyelashes
I don't like touching
1. rusty chains; like on old swings
2. doorknobs, especially the ones to the restrooms
3. oily hair
4. oil pastels
5. sticky lab countertops
6. pimple juice
7. polar fleece
8. stretchy book covers
9. other people's keyboards
10. styrofoam
I like looking at
1. art by kidchan on deviantart
2. frying eggs
3. lego star wars stop animations
4. fashion magazines
5. art books
6. old photographs
7. the stars on cold, crisp nights
8. the second hand of a clock as it makes it's way around the face (for only awhile)
9. funny cat macros aka lolcats
10. kim bum. (is this a kpop star lol)
I don't like looking at
1. human muffin tops
2. things that are excreted from my body
3. bad fan art
4. letters while getting my vision tested
5. my teachers when they ask a question
6. things that are made out of cheap plastic
7. books that are out of order
8. tangled headphones
9. optical illusions
10. hugh jackman
I like smelling
1. soy sauce
2. wet pavement (wet pavement still smells like pavement)
3. ironed and starched clothes
4. new notebook paper
5. old books
6. the coffee before I can see it
7. freshly cut grass
8. tropical humid air
9. princess by vera wang
10. the ocean on a person
I don't like smelling
1. preservatives, especially formaldehyde
2. unwashed hair
3. fragrant flowers
4. sand in playgrounds
5. cleaning products
6. woody tones, like cedar
7. pure seduction, from victoria's secret (i generally don't like perfumes)
8. fish markets
9. rosemary
10. musk-y perfumes
I like tasting
1. creme brule
2. sour candies
3. creamy salad dressing
4. ginger-chicken broth
5. in-n-out hamburgers
6. salt
7. chicken-salad sandwiches
8. fried squid with marinara sauce
9. frozen yogurt
10. konpeito (japanese candy which is basically just a ball of sugar)
I don't like tasting
1. tofu
2. leeks
3. defeat
4. almonds
5. watered down soup
6. wheat bread
7. post nasal drip
8. chalky medicines
9. bitter coffee
10. strong breath mints
I like hearing/listening to
1. rain on my window
2. powerpop
3. foreign people talk
4. ignorant people arguing about silly things
5. acoustic versions of songs
6. jim dale reading harry potter (who is jim dale)
7. mexican mariachi music radio stations
8. ben folds
9. old camera shutters closing
10. drumline
I don't like hearing/listening to
1. screamo
2. country
3. what my parents have to say
4. the house creaking
5. garbage trucks
6. airplane toilets flushing
7. my nails getting clipped (this is noise of barely a second how am i supposed to listen to it?)
8. candy wrappers unwrapping in what would have been a silent room
9. people who can't sing attempting to do a cover of a song that I like
10. the voice of the person who does our daily announcements
oh and peiyi taught me on friday how to upload videos on blogger so much easily than i thought. i always believed we have to download the video, save it on your computer and then upload by clicking the relevant button on this blog post page. and then you browse through your files and wait a lifetime for the video to be uploaded. and what peiyi taught me was: use the video's m code.
(well ok this is supposed to be a picture for the classic "HOLY SHI-!!" pose by the tumblr dude but i can't find it so just imagine)
5 Senses Bolding Survey!
I like to touch
1. crisp dollar bills
2. hot sheets fresh out of the dryer
3. worn down sandpaper
4. exfoliating face wash
5. books with leather bound covers
6. crayola model magic
7. smooth and cool ceramic items
8. hot heating pads
9. fringes on scarves
10. my eyelashes
I don't like touching
1. rusty chains; like on old swings
2. doorknobs, especially the ones to the restrooms
3. oily hair
4. oil pastels
5. sticky lab countertops
6. pimple juice
7. polar fleece
8. stretchy book covers
9. other people's keyboards
10. styrofoam
I like looking at
1. art by kidchan on deviantart
2. frying eggs
3. lego star wars stop animations
4. fashion magazines
5. art books
6. old photographs
7. the stars on cold, crisp nights
8. the second hand of a clock as it makes it's way around the face (for only awhile)
9. funny cat macros aka lolcats
10. kim bum. (is this a kpop star lol)
I don't like looking at
1. human muffin tops
2. things that are excreted from my body
3. bad fan art
4. letters while getting my vision tested
5. my teachers when they ask a question
6. things that are made out of cheap plastic
7. books that are out of order
8. tangled headphones
9. optical illusions
10. hugh jackman
I like smelling
1. soy sauce
2. wet pavement (wet pavement still smells like pavement)
3. ironed and starched clothes
4. new notebook paper
5. old books
6. the coffee before I can see it
7. freshly cut grass
8. tropical humid air
9. princess by vera wang
10. the ocean on a person
I don't like smelling
1. preservatives, especially formaldehyde
2. unwashed hair
3. fragrant flowers
4. sand in playgrounds
5. cleaning products
6. woody tones, like cedar
7. pure seduction, from victoria's secret (i generally don't like perfumes)
8. fish markets
9. rosemary
10. musk-y perfumes
I like tasting
1. creme brule
2. sour candies
3. creamy salad dressing
4. ginger-chicken broth
5. in-n-out hamburgers
6. salt
7. chicken-salad sandwiches
8. fried squid with marinara sauce
9. frozen yogurt
10. konpeito (japanese candy which is basically just a ball of sugar)
I don't like tasting
1. tofu
2. leeks
3. defeat
4. almonds
5. watered down soup
6. wheat bread
7. post nasal drip
8. chalky medicines
9. bitter coffee
10. strong breath mints
I like hearing/listening to
1. rain on my window
2. powerpop
3. foreign people talk
4. ignorant people arguing about silly things
5. acoustic versions of songs
6. jim dale reading harry potter (who is jim dale)
7. mexican mariachi music radio stations
8. ben folds
9. old camera shutters closing
10. drumline
I don't like hearing/listening to
1. screamo
2. country
3. what my parents have to say
4. the house creaking
5. garbage trucks
6. airplane toilets flushing
7. my nails getting clipped (this is noise of barely a second how am i supposed to listen to it?)
8. candy wrappers unwrapping in what would have been a silent room
9. people who can't sing attempting to do a cover of a song that I like
10. the voice of the person who does our daily announcements
oh and peiyi taught me on friday how to upload videos on blogger so much easily than i thought. i always believed we have to download the video, save it on your computer and then upload by clicking the relevant button on this blog post page. and then you browse through your files and wait a lifetime for the video to be uploaded. and what peiyi taught me was: use the video's m code.
(well ok this is supposed to be a picture for the classic "HOLY SHI-!!" pose by the tumblr dude but i can't find it so just imagine)
Thursday, January 12, 2012
7 or 17: starting school blues still exists
yup. honestly speaking, i'm starting to get afraid of starting school again. meeting new people, playing new games, will that be awkward?
even though i really don't wanna join choir again, i think i'll end up in choir again, somehow.
i haven't been exercising for so long. i don't wanna go for my first pe lesson and totally portray myself as this lousy, unfit, fat girl. napfa is going to be so much worse
enjoying almost 2 months of slacking and playing now, i don't exactly know how to study anymore. the restarting of the engines must take so much effort!
i'm so tired. everyday when afternoon has barely gone by, i'm already starting to feel sleepy. how to survive like that?
ahh well
even though i really don't wanna join choir again, i think i'll end up in choir again, somehow.
i haven't been exercising for so long. i don't wanna go for my first pe lesson and totally portray myself as this lousy, unfit, fat girl. napfa is going to be so much worse
enjoying almost 2 months of slacking and playing now, i don't exactly know how to study anymore. the restarting of the engines must take so much effort!
i'm so tired. everyday when afternoon has barely gone by, i'm already starting to feel sleepy. how to survive like that?
ahh well
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
"wa, heng ah!"
was what i felt when i first saw my results slip. i was first attracted to the straight row of "A"s and i literally "phew!" and then i looked at the column whether that indicates either "ONE" or "TWO" and i was so damn freaking happy to see a "ONE" for history. oleh!!
so yup, all in all, i got an L1R5 of 7, and with higher chinese (surprisingly this was a freaking A2) and the cca points, i've got a final score of 3. which for me, is really a lot more (or less) than what i expected. i estimated that i would get a score more than that, so i'm really thankful for what i got. as a response to ziying's blog post about me not being too satisfied about my non-perfect scores: no worries, i'm very relieved and happy. not a single sense of regret. as to my mother, i wonder whether she is really proud of me because her first reaction when i told her i got a 7 was, "7? good or not?" anyway ziying, here i reply you, yup i read your blog post and thanks for caring and thinking about me ^^ heehee
so yup, i could have done better for amath and english, but everything's over and its time to move on. there were many people who started thanking their Gods all over facebook or quoting bible quotes, so here, i want to thank whoever's up there watching over me (i'm not a christian) or perhaps this personal guardian angel who might be just beside me now for 'blessing' my results. and if there's nobody there, then i guess, i'll give myself a pat on the back for the studying before o levels. honestly, i don't think i gave my all for all the subjects (coughsbiocoughs) so to get what i got, i'm happy.
there were friends who were unhappy over their results. yesterday when i tried to comfort them, i really didn't know what to say. i was so damn helpless and with so many people celebrating nearby, i felt so awkward. but here, after thinking about it, to those who are still depressed over their results: crying (or eating chocolate or ice cream or running) helps, but there comes a time when you need to get over it and move on because 10 years on, we'll look back and wonder how come a piece of paper can make us cry like that. it doesn't define a single percent of our character.
i don't really want to say anything more because i will sound very hypocritical, but all in all, all of you have done and tried your best in the exams, so there's really nothing to continue being sad for. if you have not done your best, then take comfort in the fact that you still have 2/3 more years to prove your worth and this is regardless of what jc/poly you go to.
ok i'm done with this. don't wanna hang around and i need to shit.
oh did i say. yesterday after results i ended up with shujun again at bpp, just eating and browsing CD shops - things we do always, whenever we're together in a mall. i meant, i just want to say that its amazing how after 4 years everything's still the same and all. ^^
lastly, congrats to those who did well! (this means those who are happy with their results)
so yup, all in all, i got an L1R5 of 7, and with higher chinese (surprisingly this was a freaking A2) and the cca points, i've got a final score of 3. which for me, is really a lot more (or less) than what i expected. i estimated that i would get a score more than that, so i'm really thankful for what i got. as a response to ziying's blog post about me not being too satisfied about my non-perfect scores: no worries, i'm very relieved and happy. not a single sense of regret. as to my mother, i wonder whether she is really proud of me because her first reaction when i told her i got a 7 was, "7? good or not?" anyway ziying, here i reply you, yup i read your blog post and thanks for caring and thinking about me ^^ heehee
so yup, i could have done better for amath and english, but everything's over and its time to move on. there were many people who started thanking their Gods all over facebook or quoting bible quotes, so here, i want to thank whoever's up there watching over me (i'm not a christian) or perhaps this personal guardian angel who might be just beside me now for 'blessing' my results. and if there's nobody there, then i guess, i'll give myself a pat on the back for the studying before o levels. honestly, i don't think i gave my all for all the subjects (coughsbiocoughs) so to get what i got, i'm happy.
there were friends who were unhappy over their results. yesterday when i tried to comfort them, i really didn't know what to say. i was so damn helpless and with so many people celebrating nearby, i felt so awkward. but here, after thinking about it, to those who are still depressed over their results: crying (or eating chocolate or ice cream or running) helps, but there comes a time when you need to get over it and move on because 10 years on, we'll look back and wonder how come a piece of paper can make us cry like that. it doesn't define a single percent of our character.
i don't really want to say anything more because i will sound very hypocritical, but all in all, all of you have done and tried your best in the exams, so there's really nothing to continue being sad for. if you have not done your best, then take comfort in the fact that you still have 2/3 more years to prove your worth and this is regardless of what jc/poly you go to.
ok i'm done with this. don't wanna hang around and i need to shit.
oh did i say. yesterday after results i ended up with shujun again at bpp, just eating and browsing CD shops - things we do always, whenever we're together in a mall. i meant, i just want to say that its amazing how after 4 years everything's still the same and all. ^^
lastly, congrats to those who did well! (this means those who are happy with their results)
Sunday, January 8, 2012
the '6L' 'gathering'
o level results is out tomorrow at 2pm. somehow i haven't been panicking these few days. i think its gonna be like receiving chinese results all over again. i panicked and became so paranoid a while before the release, but the last week and even on that day itself, i was calm beyond calm. i mean, calm beyond my expectations.
i still do think about what i'll get and try to estimate what i'll get based on my performance 2 months ago. but that is all. i don't freak out or whatever. but i do get really really thankful for the a1 i got for normal chinese. it really helped a lot. (sorry to the normal chinese guys)
anyway hopefully tomorrow at this time, when i think about my results, i would jump for joy and become almost delirious with glee as well as disbelief. but up till then, i guess i would just continue blogging, surfing the net, checking facebook, reading novels etc etc.
reason for the first apostrophe in my title: even though it was posted on the 6L'07 page on facebook, meant for all the 6L'07 pupils to attend the 6L'07 gathering, in total, only 8/38 turned up. first and foremost, i wanna clarify that i'm not complaining, because the 'gathering' (for this second apostrophe i will explain later) was actually rather fun. fun in its own ways i mean. so firstly i met up with salihin to catch mission impossible III. it was really really good, its funny and action-y at the same time. and then along the way to marina bay to meet kahwei and daryl, we chatted a lot ^^ and caught up with each other. went to marina bay to find out that we only went there to gather (while kw and daryl just went there for toastbox lol) because we ended up going backwards to plaza sing. oh and we met ira in the station too! back there, we decided to catch another movie: sherlock holmes. which was better than the first sherlock holmes for me. it has more feelings and whatever. not just all detective work. and then while ira and salihin left, the rest of us met up with the twins and hwaimun. and we went for dinner. during which i left a proper restuarant without ordering anything for the first time. haha we ended up having dinner at thai's kitchen blah blah. and then watched another movie: some dragon show which title i'm too lazy to check. its in chinese and i think its rather fine ^^ so yesterday was the first time in my 16 years of existence where i watched 3 movies in a day. kind of like a movie marathon. hahah and out of the 3 tickets, i only paid for 1. (hahahha salihin insisted on treating --> what a gentleman right haha while i ran out of money by the 3rd movie and hwaimun paid for mine first) so that's practically it. after everything went home on 190 with hwaimun and yeah.
reason for second apostrophe in my title: how did a primary school class gathering ended up with 1/4 of the time travelling, 1/2 the time getting leg and eye cramps in the theatres, and the other 1/4 eating and spending time in daiso/anime/figurine shops/arcade is beyond me. isn't a class gathering supposed to be one where everybody actually gathers around and chat and play comfortably? whose class gathering ends up in daiso? lol
its 11.20pm at night now i think i've started this blog post more than 3 hours ago. i really don't feel anything for tomorrow. i'm still treating tonight like those normal nights where i will wake up the next day only to start my usual routine again: get and stay on the computer.
hmmm
i still do think about what i'll get and try to estimate what i'll get based on my performance 2 months ago. but that is all. i don't freak out or whatever. but i do get really really thankful for the a1 i got for normal chinese. it really helped a lot. (sorry to the normal chinese guys)
anyway hopefully tomorrow at this time, when i think about my results, i would jump for joy and become almost delirious with glee as well as disbelief. but up till then, i guess i would just continue blogging, surfing the net, checking facebook, reading novels etc etc.
anyway good luck for all receiving results tomorrow! hang in there!
omg do you guys know that the scooby doo song is sang by simple plan?! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nhT2DwqVpN8&feature=related )
reason for the first apostrophe in my title: even though it was posted on the 6L'07 page on facebook, meant for all the 6L'07 pupils to attend the 6L'07 gathering, in total, only 8/38 turned up. first and foremost, i wanna clarify that i'm not complaining, because the 'gathering' (for this second apostrophe i will explain later) was actually rather fun. fun in its own ways i mean. so firstly i met up with salihin to catch mission impossible III. it was really really good, its funny and action-y at the same time. and then along the way to marina bay to meet kahwei and daryl, we chatted a lot ^^ and caught up with each other. went to marina bay to find out that we only went there to gather (while kw and daryl just went there for toastbox lol) because we ended up going backwards to plaza sing. oh and we met ira in the station too! back there, we decided to catch another movie: sherlock holmes. which was better than the first sherlock holmes for me. it has more feelings and whatever. not just all detective work. and then while ira and salihin left, the rest of us met up with the twins and hwaimun. and we went for dinner. during which i left a proper restuarant without ordering anything for the first time. haha we ended up having dinner at thai's kitchen blah blah. and then watched another movie: some dragon show which title i'm too lazy to check. its in chinese and i think its rather fine ^^ so yesterday was the first time in my 16 years of existence where i watched 3 movies in a day. kind of like a movie marathon. hahah and out of the 3 tickets, i only paid for 1. (hahahha salihin insisted on treating --> what a gentleman right haha while i ran out of money by the 3rd movie and hwaimun paid for mine first) so that's practically it. after everything went home on 190 with hwaimun and yeah.
reason for second apostrophe in my title: how did a primary school class gathering ended up with 1/4 of the time travelling, 1/2 the time getting leg and eye cramps in the theatres, and the other 1/4 eating and spending time in daiso/anime/figurine shops/arcade is beyond me. isn't a class gathering supposed to be one where everybody actually gathers around and chat and play comfortably? whose class gathering ends up in daiso? lol
its 11.20pm at night now i think i've started this blog post more than 3 hours ago. i really don't feel anything for tomorrow. i'm still treating tonight like those normal nights where i will wake up the next day only to start my usual routine again: get and stay on the computer.
hmmm
Sunday, January 1, 2012
ayye, welcome 2012!
2012 new year resolutions
- be a filial, happy daughter. tolerate more, show more patience, understand my mum more and love her more. do not procrastinate when buying her presents/showing her love.
- be a sister that my brother will be proud having. do not get frustrated/irritated with him that easily. talk to him more frequently, especially now since i have more time in january.
- be a good friend, reliable friend to those good buddies i have. have more sensitivity before i speak, think about others.
- meet new friends, be more open and not afraid to be myself.
- good O level results. (8 and below pleaseeeeeeee)
- be fit consistently. work out/exercise regularly. really, 3 times a week excluding pe?
- stay healthy, eat healthy, stay happy, be happy.
all my resolutions sound so cliche! ahh, but here, i wish all of you guys an awesome and meaningful 2012! remember health is really the most important so guys take care of yourselves, stay safe, and stay healthy. even if not for yourself, do it for your loved ones.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
the year of 2011
i wish i can link 2011 to a year of making miracles, achieving beyond my limits, studying to my fullest, enjoyed myself to the best etc etc. but no.
there were many instances in 2011 where i was disappointed in myself. for example, when i procrastinated and ended up not giving any presents to my mother during mother's day and her birthday as well as to my brother on his birthday or when he came out of army. i hated myself for being so cold hearted and not showing enough concern for both of them. in school, i hated myself for hesitating to help, thinking of perhaps myself more than others at times, or thinking of my pride. i was disappointed when i can't seem to be the friend who stood by the other in times of need. in academics, i was disheartened by my outstanding lack of motivation during tests, and even during the exams period.
after everything and everything, 2011 is finally ending. honestly i don't feel as if there's a huge load lifted from me, perhaps because i've never felt how heavy 2011 was. the year just passed in a flash, in periods of stress, freaking out, catching breaths and then going back to the heavy routine of homework and studying and grades again. of course, in the meantime, there is also choir.
which brings me to the first thing i'll say i'm proud of. breaking history and obtaining the very first gold with honours in 16 years is definitely not a feat people will forget over time. even though we say, oh the judges this year were specially lenient, but at least we take pride in the fact that we're on the same level as other good schools. i take more pride in being the senior, the oldest, to lead the choir to the GWH prize. as compared to my fellow level mates who are the chairmen, section leaders etc of the choir, my contribution is so much less. but still. i'm so darn happy whenever i think that the 2011 batch was the first batch to ever obtain a GWH. friends in choir is definitely a joy to think about too. i thank whoever's watching us that despite being a huge level of 22 (we made up half the choir), we are still rather bonded as compared to other levels. even though there is a clear distinction of 2 groups, but i guess, one would always be closer to another friend than to some other. so i've grown to love my level, with all the imperfections, how we find it so hard to often come to a damn decision, how even with conflicts we just keep it down and how we somehow manage to still crap out a performance with barely perfect rehearsals (even though the performances were still really crap). we could literally feel the tension and the weariness of everything during those countless recess practices but eventually we got through everything. so after being through so much together in 4 years, i'm so thankful we're still together and hopefully, will continue to go strong ^^
there were many instances in 2011 where i was disappointed in myself. for example, when i procrastinated and ended up not giving any presents to my mother during mother's day and her birthday as well as to my brother on his birthday or when he came out of army. i hated myself for being so cold hearted and not showing enough concern for both of them. in school, i hated myself for hesitating to help, thinking of perhaps myself more than others at times, or thinking of my pride. i was disappointed when i can't seem to be the friend who stood by the other in times of need. in academics, i was disheartened by my outstanding lack of motivation during tests, and even during the exams period.
after everything and everything, 2011 is finally ending. honestly i don't feel as if there's a huge load lifted from me, perhaps because i've never felt how heavy 2011 was. the year just passed in a flash, in periods of stress, freaking out, catching breaths and then going back to the heavy routine of homework and studying and grades again. of course, in the meantime, there is also choir.
which brings me to the first thing i'll say i'm proud of. breaking history and obtaining the very first gold with honours in 16 years is definitely not a feat people will forget over time. even though we say, oh the judges this year were specially lenient, but at least we take pride in the fact that we're on the same level as other good schools. i take more pride in being the senior, the oldest, to lead the choir to the GWH prize. as compared to my fellow level mates who are the chairmen, section leaders etc of the choir, my contribution is so much less. but still. i'm so darn happy whenever i think that the 2011 batch was the first batch to ever obtain a GWH. friends in choir is definitely a joy to think about too. i thank whoever's watching us that despite being a huge level of 22 (we made up half the choir), we are still rather bonded as compared to other levels. even though there is a clear distinction of 2 groups, but i guess, one would always be closer to another friend than to some other. so i've grown to love my level, with all the imperfections, how we find it so hard to often come to a damn decision, how even with conflicts we just keep it down and how we somehow manage to still crap out a performance with barely perfect rehearsals (even though the performances were still really crap). we could literally feel the tension and the weariness of everything during those countless recess practices but eventually we got through everything. so after being through so much together in 4 years, i'm so thankful we're still together and hopefully, will continue to go strong ^^
YOU KNOW WHAT. i'm bored already. i don't wanna do reflections anymore. anyway to the sy dudes, i've written all of you guys letters! so its ok right ^^ and i wouldn't want to repeat myself again so.. :/
ok see you guys next year. what a disappointment right this post.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
the... future?
as far as right now goes, i can only see myself going into JC and completing the A's. i can't see anything after that. its not even a blur. its nothingness. its like i'm not even going to exist after 18 years old. (but omg don't let me die) like the protagonist in those sci fi dramas who can look in the future but suddenly can't seem to discern anything out after this specific date. it just stops, you know. and then the omnious, alarmed feeling strikes and the dramatic, foreshadowing music descends.
of course, i was thinking about my future in silence, but the feelings i got were as strong as as if there were loud music playing behind. the nearest future for me, is definitely, the O level results. not going to deny, but ever since the meeting with gigi and we were talking about the results, i've been feeling very jittery. (is that even an emotion) i've always wanted to be you know, 潇洒 about the whole results thing, acting like this isn't one of the most important things that matter to me. but who's to kid, this damn results thing is really taking over me these days. there were times where i was so freaked out that i literally grabbed a chunk of hair and pulled. how!?! it seems like my brain has been programmed to accept anything only below 9 points. which is almost impossible and unachievable because when i think of it, the 6 subjects that will get me less than 9 points are not even there.
no one can be certain about english, and i'm pretty sure i'm not very outstanding in english in school. physics is uncertain too, because i've already made some damn ridiculous mistakes. chemistry was manageable but still uncertain. biology is not even a subject that i'll consider being in my l1r5 (come on numerous class tests of 15/35 how far do you think bio can get me) emath is the one that i've most confidence in, but come on, whose 'most confident comfirm plus chop plus black and white' is not emath? amath is screwed beyond screwed it just saddens me to hell when i think about both papers. ss was fine but really, nobody, even the best student in humanities cannot be sure about humanities. (no offence nat ho) the lit unseen passage deserves to be punched, crushed, tore, shredded into a million freaking pathetic pieces because it just messes with your brain. oh you can punch the author (who happens to be not crazy in her words but because of the passage you suspect she is crazy and is just using reverse psychology to f your mind), cause you can't punch paper. and history, the one that i'm most disappointed in, reading the question so darn carefully already but still not giving what it wants. what's more the modern world paper is so shit too (?!)
so yeah, i would be really at a loss of what to do if i get like 10 points etc etc because that'll just be damn... unacceptable.
ok whatever for now i'm over this i'm over this i'm moving on to the next part.
i'm actually really excited to grow up. i want to grow to at least 20 and stay in my 20s forever. well firstly, i want to go to JC and meet new friends, interact with guys (a specie (omg lol what is the singular of species or is there no singular) that is rather unfamiliar to me now after 4 years of girls' school), get a new cca. and then while going through my studies, i'll drink for the first time, go clubbing for the first time, perhaps experience my first kiss . then at 21, during uni, i'll become a proper adult and proper woman! by then, i would have gotten my driving licence and whatnot. and after that, i'll go out to work, hopefully as someone that i would enjoy being, and meet new people, go into the working world. soon, i'll meet a guy (or not), get married (stay alone but happy?), get kids (no way will i get pets) and live on happily ever after.
or, my life can go the complete opposite. perhaps a few days from now, i'll be walking down orchard road and then get searched and spotted to become a model for a company. soon, i'll realise my hidden-but-dying-to-explode passion for modelling and for acting and i'll go into entertainment. perhaps i'll land the role of the next Hermione or Bella (omg i typed Balla at first) or the next 小燕子. not long later, perhaps at 20, you'll see me on magazines and television interviews and signing autographs. by 22, i would have earned my first million from my Jack Bond trilogy. and because i'm so freaking rich and influential, guys would shun away from me and i'll stay single forever. (just like how most of the stars do)
or, i'll become the female lead in those typical dramas. i'll be walking down orchard road, then trip over this man's $999 branded leather shoes. and then i'll fall over, but before that, i'll make a damn epic 'falling down' unglam face at some camera that will just happen to be there. and before i fall flat on my face, i'll feel this pair of strong arms grabbing (or circling) my waist and i'll look up to find this man with sunglasses looking down at me. time would stop or go in slow motion, and i'll be bewitched by his attractive and handsome look but also notice this cold inpenetrable look on his face. and then i'll be introduced as this poor but so damn filial girl, dressed in rags and so 'different' from the other typical fangirls....
ok that was too much. but you see! i'm so damn excited for the future. i want to know who are the friends that'll still be with me 10 years later, or who i'll invite to my wedding. i want to know what kind of job i'll get, what kind of life i'll lead, what kind of r'ship i'll share with my mum and bro, what kind of r'ship i'll share with my cousins and relatives. i want to know, whether i'll be in singapore or alabama or argentina. i want to know whether i'll be happy or not. so yes ^^
and i swear, if the damned 2012's going to happen, i'll punch it in its face first for ruining my future. so much for being so excited now huh
of course, i was thinking about my future in silence, but the feelings i got were as strong as as if there were loud music playing behind. the nearest future for me, is definitely, the O level results. not going to deny, but ever since the meeting with gigi and we were talking about the results, i've been feeling very jittery. (is that even an emotion) i've always wanted to be you know, 潇洒 about the whole results thing, acting like this isn't one of the most important things that matter to me. but who's to kid, this damn results thing is really taking over me these days. there were times where i was so freaked out that i literally grabbed a chunk of hair and pulled. how!?! it seems like my brain has been programmed to accept anything only below 9 points. which is almost impossible and unachievable because when i think of it, the 6 subjects that will get me less than 9 points are not even there.
no one can be certain about english, and i'm pretty sure i'm not very outstanding in english in school. physics is uncertain too, because i've already made some damn ridiculous mistakes. chemistry was manageable but still uncertain. biology is not even a subject that i'll consider being in my l1r5 (come on numerous class tests of 15/35 how far do you think bio can get me) emath is the one that i've most confidence in, but come on, whose 'most confident comfirm plus chop plus black and white' is not emath? amath is screwed beyond screwed it just saddens me to hell when i think about both papers. ss was fine but really, nobody, even the best student in humanities cannot be sure about humanities. (no offence nat ho) the lit unseen passage deserves to be punched, crushed, tore, shredded into a million freaking pathetic pieces because it just messes with your brain. oh you can punch the author (who happens to be not crazy in her words but because of the passage you suspect she is crazy and is just using reverse psychology to f your mind), cause you can't punch paper. and history, the one that i'm most disappointed in, reading the question so darn carefully already but still not giving what it wants. what's more the modern world paper is so shit too (?!)
so yeah, i would be really at a loss of what to do if i get like 10 points etc etc because that'll just be damn... unacceptable.
ok whatever for now i'm over this i'm over this i'm moving on to the next part.
i'm actually really excited to grow up. i want to grow to at least 20 and stay in my 20s forever. well firstly, i want to go to JC and meet new friends, interact with guys (a specie (omg lol what is the singular of species or is there no singular) that is rather unfamiliar to me now after 4 years of girls' school), get a new cca. and then while going through my studies, i'll drink for the first time, go clubbing for the first time, perhaps experience my first kiss . then at 21, during uni, i'll become a proper adult and proper woman! by then, i would have gotten my driving licence and whatnot. and after that, i'll go out to work, hopefully as someone that i would enjoy being, and meet new people, go into the working world. soon, i'll meet a guy (or not), get married (stay alone but happy?), get kids (no way will i get pets) and live on happily ever after.
or, my life can go the complete opposite. perhaps a few days from now, i'll be walking down orchard road and then get searched and spotted to become a model for a company. soon, i'll realise my hidden-but-dying-to-explode passion for modelling and for acting and i'll go into entertainment. perhaps i'll land the role of the next Hermione or Bella (omg i typed Balla at first) or the next 小燕子. not long later, perhaps at 20, you'll see me on magazines and television interviews and signing autographs. by 22, i would have earned my first million from my Jack Bond trilogy. and because i'm so freaking rich and influential, guys would shun away from me and i'll stay single forever. (just like how most of the stars do)
or, i'll become the female lead in those typical dramas. i'll be walking down orchard road, then trip over this man's $999 branded leather shoes. and then i'll fall over, but before that, i'll make a damn epic 'falling down' unglam face at some camera that will just happen to be there. and before i fall flat on my face, i'll feel this pair of strong arms grabbing (or circling) my waist and i'll look up to find this man with sunglasses looking down at me. time would stop or go in slow motion, and i'll be bewitched by his attractive and handsome look but also notice this cold inpenetrable look on his face. and then i'll be introduced as this poor but so damn filial girl, dressed in rags and so 'different' from the other typical fangirls....
ok that was too much. but you see! i'm so damn excited for the future. i want to know who are the friends that'll still be with me 10 years later, or who i'll invite to my wedding. i want to know what kind of job i'll get, what kind of life i'll lead, what kind of r'ship i'll share with my mum and bro, what kind of r'ship i'll share with my cousins and relatives. i want to know, whether i'll be in singapore or alabama or argentina. i want to know whether i'll be happy or not. so yes ^^
and i swear, if the damned 2012's going to happen, i'll punch it in its face first for ruining my future. so much for being so excited now huh
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